It's Me

Im sad, im confused, Im shy, and Im mad
Im down, and I feel Im loosing ground,
Im bad, Im week, Im not doing well, Im screwed,
Im ****ed up, and I think I failed you all.

Im down, wont be up, need someone to cheer me up,
I think its the end of old me, its the born of new me,
I failed, I think intentionally, but seems its fact that I fail,
Failed, to be with you, maybe because Im so alone without you.

Im dull, my head pains, Im sick, wish never to be sane,
Sometimes I love to be in pain, hurting myself is not away,
But it does hurt much, when you cause the pain,
I hate you, wish I never followed you from the start,

Do I love you or not, did I forgot you or still you live in my heart,
Where are you, I miss you, you are never around, and wish to kill you,
My heart aint lucky, twice and never felt in peace and loving,
My mind is falling, my heart is broken, my life is torn, and thrown away in the wind,

Mischose my friends, and now I suffer, Im being used, Im a loser,
Only you are there with me, and I thank you so much,
You've been a best friend to me, and member of family,
I love you more eachday eventhough I may not see you everyday.

Im frustrated, Im down, Im problem, dont come around,
Is this what you so call family, everyone looking for his best,
No matter whom you crush, its just the goal is obtained,
Im ashamed to be from you its only my family that I wanna be with.

Im bloom, Im alone eventhough everyone is around,
I wanna sleep everynight, and wake up in my own world,
I wanna sleep, sleep long, wake up to see everything is gone,
Im just to week, I just wanna cry, I just wanna cry.

Ill be good, Ill benice, if only I can see people who care
Im lost, my mind is blowig, am I my old me, or new me is here
Im sick Im bloom, I just want to be good nice to all,
Im used, and I dont care, I love to care, and wont stop if you dare.

I just need a you beside me, need someone who care & loves me,
Too much in agony, too away far from me, but I will die to see you infront of me
It seems it wont work out like this, you are never around, and not sure of ur feels
Im getting cold, Im geting bored, Im a loser and I failed you all.

Im sorry for you all, never wished we would be apart that way,
Im sorry, and I apologize for everything bad that I say,
Im bad, and I apologize for everymoment that I wont stay,
I wish everything is fine, but its not, Im doomed, unless saved by you....!!!??

Anonymous You

To the anonymous you,
Are you so far to be reached,
Or is it I lost faith in all eve,
Either way, I know how I feel about you,
But I'm not gonna take that step for sure.

To the anonymous you,
How could it be love that I feel,
while my heart not fully healed,
My heart is open, words are revealed,
I love you, much better to be sealed.

To the anonymous you,
I dont know whether you hear me,
In my mind many thoughts I fear,
Time passes and you are away from me,
Am I a lover, or am I just a dear.

To the anonymous you,
Your eyes are lethal and are killing me,
Yet I'll die to see you infront of me,
I'm so confused, always feeling astray,
Should I tell you, or keep you dull from me.

To the anonymous you,
Love always come back again,
so does pain, deep inside it remains,
Thats the way things are and will be,
I love you, even more, when you are a friend to me...

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Written on 11/04/2008
By: Ahmed Shazly
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My Life

Now after so long time,
I finally came to understand,
You and I are one,
Never apart, eventhough we’re friends

Everyone says it all starts that way,
But why we’d believe everything they say,
Before everything had a start,
And I will love you till I fall apart.

Yes I love you from all my heart,
Innocently, and wish we never apart,
Best friends forever, best friends for life,
No matter what, nothing that you dont deserve.

My life is priceless,
My life is hopless,
My life is nill without you little miss.

My life is costless,
My life is meaningless,
My life is nill without you little miss.

My Life is you.......
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Written on 11/04/2008
By: Ahmed Shazly
Specially dedicated to you !!!
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